Lately, there has been much chaos in my life, mostly concerning emotions, and I obviously haven't been able to write about this. It is too difficult to take the time to try and explain an endless bombardment of emotions or events, especially the events that have occurred in the past five months or so. This year has already been very long for me, although the last month was also extremely boring and uninspiring. Maybe sometime later I will summarize some things that have happened since I last wrote, or at least make another long survey of my own so that this blog is not neglected. Just don't expect too much from me, as I simply want to do things that let me feel free from stress, and hopefully much happier than I have been. If writing in a journal helps me with this, and if I have time and feel able, then I will be updating here again soon.
Anyway, here is the email response to my best friend Enel, since she happened to send me this survey December of 2005. They are my answers to the survey, so that I have something interesting to throw into this blog today.
1. What is your Full Name?
It depends on which name you are asking for. The name my parents gave me is evil to me, so I don't want to have to think about it anymore. My spirit name, on the other hand, which is the name I am called by those who really care and respect me, is Taelle Oreseth.
2. What color jeans are you wearing right now?
I'm not wearing pants.
...
LOL
Don't worry, I've got yellow underwear.
3. What are you listening to right now:
A song from Mario64, because Dethy is playing videogame music in winamp. I'm also hearing Dethy eat. e_e
4. What are the last 2 digits of your phone number:
00. Isn't that unique?
5. What was the last thing you ate?
Uhh... A vanilla wafer? Actually, it tastes more like lemon flavor than vanilla to me. I haven't had a meal today, and I don't know if I'll feel like having one.
7. How is the weather right now:
I don't really know, because there is a huge tree always blocking our window. And I don't usually care to pay attention to the weather lately, unless it happens to be significantly affecting the temperature in here.
What I do know, is that this survey is missing question number 6.
8. Last person you talked to on the phone?
I guess my mom. And not for long, because she's always more interested in someone else calling her, something on the internet, something on TV, her dog barking, or just anything that doesn't have to do with me.
9. First thing you notice about the opposite sex:
...That they are male. What am I supposed to say?
10. Do you like the person who sent this to you?
Link: How about a kiss?
Ganon: NOOOOoOOOoOOOoOOOoOOOoOOO
Lol. I'm just being silly. Of course, I love her. In fact she's higher priority to me than my biological family, since she is more family to me than they are. I love my family but they don't respect me or treat me like family should. Anyone who actually knows me already knows this.
11. How are you today:
I don't know, I have a mix of emotions because I have been stressed lately. I am very tired, but also looking forward to spending real time with my best friend when her schooling is over, and helping her to have more freedom.
12. Favorite Drink?
I don't know if I have a favorite drink. I really do love Monster Energy M80 (the yellow one with 80% juice), but I can't have it very often, mainly because it's too expensive. Besides, I don't want to become dependent on any kind of substance, whether it be food, alcohol, drugs, or any other chemicals. Caffeine is not healthy either, even though the M80 Monster drink is a lot healthier than other Energy drinks are.
13. Favorite Alcoholic drink:
I never get to drink, so wouldn't know. But, the most delicious tasting alcoholic drinks I ever had were home-made by my sister Jenn. That's why I think she could make a kick-ass bartender. (I have fun memories from us inventing the "red lemons" drink".)
14. Favorite Sports:
Sex?
Lmao. That's not a sport... Is it?
I just don't like sports.
15. What's your hair Color:
Right now? Or the one I was born with? Or is it something else? Well, right now, I'm not sure. It's an odd brown color these days.
16. Eye Color:
Dark brown from far away. But if you look close enough, they actually really look green and yellow.
17. Do you wear contacts?
Nope. I have before, but only for fun, because my vision is supposedly "perfect". During my years in High School, on Halloween, I would wear only a single Honey-Brown colored contact, which my sister Lisa lent me. That way, I had one light brown eye, and one dark brown eye. Then people would trip out over my bi-colored eyes, wondering if they had always been that way. Lol.
18. Siblings:
I have three older sisters, two of which are fraternal twins. Right now Lisa is 30, and I think that Jenn and Victoria are 33. I happen to be 22, so yeah, there's a gap there.
Oh no, we're getting old!
19. Favorite Month?
I don't supposed I've ever had a favorite month, aside from December being the best month for me when I was a kid. Of course that was solely because of how awesome Christmas break used to be, being able to see my dad and my sisters, and celebrating two Christmases due to my parents being separated. Anyway, these days, I have no idea what my favorite month is, because Christmas has pretty much died in my life, and I don't know how to revive it.
January through April would be my favorite part of the year if I were actually able to celebrate birthdays...
20. Favorite Food?
I don't have a favorite food either, mainly because the only foods that are available for me to eat, are all things that make me sick or give my body a lot of trouble in some way. I do miss having great food (the non-spicy versions) such as Cornbread, Mashed Potatoes, Italian Cheese Bread, and the Apple Burritos that don't exist anymore.
21. Last Movie you watched:
That's a tough one, since it's been a long while. I think Wayne's World?
22. Favorite Day of the Year:
Favorite Day? Damn, I don't know. Any day where I get to spend plenty of time with my best friend, and lover, doing something fun, like role-playing... then if I could end the day with great sex, good sleep and creative lucid dreams, that'd make it perfect... e-e Then again, that's more a description of a perfect day I really wish I could have, rather than a Favorite Day of the Year. So I don't have a Favorite Day of the Year, because every day is different, though most of my days seem so boring or depressing.
(Yeah, I am a "nymphomaniac" and love sex, but it's not my life. I just keep mentioning it because I don't get to express my sexuality like I need to, which tends to make me sad as well as emotionally unstable.)
23. Are you too shy to ask someone out:
It depends on what you mean by "asking someone out". I have never gone dating and I never will, at least in the stereotypical sense of the word "dating", which I think is stupid. On the other hand, if you meant that as in simply asking to go somewhere with someone, then I would go ahead and do it, because my "shyness" is not going to stop me from doing something that I really want... At least not anymore. I'm a woman, not a girl.
24. Which one Summer or Winter:
I like Summer nights, as long as they aren't hot, and especially if they are both warm and rainy. Otherwise, extreme temperatures in general simply bother me too much.
25. Hugs or Kisses?
Depends on who is doing it, and why.
26. Chocolate or Vanilla:
I would have to say both at the same time. I don't like Chocolate much, especially by itself, which is something I won't eat unless my low blood-sugar is screaming at me. The rest of my crazy woman family on the other hand, loves chocolate. I would rather just have Vanilla ice cream with Mint flavor, and Cookie Dough, because I think that is the greatest.
27. Do you want your friends to write back:
I'm only sending this to Enel and Dethy. Yes, it would be great to hear any response, especially from Enel, though I don't have expectations either way.
Everyone else I know is too busy and/or doesn't care enough to keep in touch with me.
28. Who is most likely to respond to e-mails:
Well, like I said, I'm only sending this to Enel and Dethy. If you mean to emails in general, then nobody will respond to my emails anyway, because those emails don't exist. I don't write to anybody, because I have nobody to write to, or else wouldn't want to, unless it's Enel. And I could just talk to Dethy on a messenger or in person. So pleh.
29: Who is least likely to respond to e-mails:
Anyone who isn't Enelevrinn Michelle Romisius.
30. Living Arrangements:
My living arrangements have been the same for two years or so, in this small apartment with my lover, in a city that I have come to hate, which is in a state that I really only like because of the climate, and because Enel lives here. Hopefully, though, Enel will be living with me soon, which gives me the motivation to live and to do things again. That's because this is something I have wanted for many years. Enel gives me energy, and that's something that no one else can do (except for Monster Energy, which isn't a person).
31. What books are you reading:
Right this second I am reading this survey. I haven't exactly kept up on reading ever since Dethy moved in with me. This is for several reasons, although I have been wanting to read Animorphs books again. I guess I have (half-assedly) started to read Animorphs perhaps twice this year, but didn't even get through half a book. Unfortunately that's it.
32. What's on your mouse pad:
This cheap one I have been using is red and says "Office DEPOT" in white text.
The last time Enel was here, she gave me a new one with a wolf on it. Yay!
33. Favorite Board Game:
Board game? I dunno. One that doesn't exist? Otherwise I like my version of Sorry, because it's more interesting and like a strategy game which uses dice as well as cards. But I like video-games and computer games better.
34. What did you do last night:
It's a little hard to remember everything since I've been so tired lately. Yesterday I was just involved in fixing things up and trying to make plans for new living arrangements. Basically what I did was clean and rearrange the house, mostly the Master Bedroom. Then at maybe one in the morning I went to bed.
35. Favorite Smells:
Um? It's been so long since I smelled something very good, I don't remember what smells I like. o-o; Lately I really only ever get to experience smells that are not nice, such as spicy foods, overwhelming chemical smells and stuffy air. Oh well... I guess when the weather gets warmer, I'll get to smell fresh air again.
37. What inspires you?
Being with my best friend, having dreams to live in, and good memories. Reading, day-dreaming, and role-playing can also be inspiring. My characters and other story stuff are the closest thing I have to feeling like I'm at home in this life, so of course that's important and inspiring to me.
By the way, what happened to number 36 and 38?
39. Favorite Flower:
I don't know many Earthly flowers at all, or at least their names. I just know that they're fun to look at and smell. And since I'm weird, having flowers around would just make me want to touch and play with them, which would probably end up killing them.
My favorite flower would be one that doesn't exist in this dimension. It's one that is very huge, very red, very pretty, and very delicious to eat. NOM NOM.
40. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning?
If I happen to remember my dream, I'll think about that for a while. After that, my brain usually snaps right back to whatever I was thinking about before I went to bed, so that I can continue with my life. And that is how my life goes on... The end?