Welcome to my Blog
I am on a spiritual quest for healing
And to find my freedom from fear and self-induced limitations


Self Induced Limitations = Limited Growth
And I will not accept unnecessary limitations anymore.

I created this site because I needed to do a lot of serious spiritual venting.
For once, I am going to refuse to dislike myself.
I am also going to be honest with my thoughts and feelings.
If no one else, I must be honest with myself.
And above all, I must love myself.


I am a female. At least in this one physical life. And it doesn't really matter anyway.
The age of my current body has nothing to do with who I am, either.
Since I was a small child, I have had to endure many physical and emotional difficulties.
These include dysmorphophobia, chronic depression, chronic fatigue, low blood sugar and more.
I have experienced more trauma, abuse and loneliness in this life than my family may ever know.
I have undergone much emotional, spiritual, and intellectual bondage and abuse.
Not to mention that this has had incredibly negative impacts on my physical health as well.
And how did I live through the fact that my hardships were viewed as non-existent...
And that unrealistic expectations were constantly placed upon me.
I was raised into poverty, and am still struggling to get out of it.
Ultimately, I have also been rendered emotionally broken and socially dysfunctional.
But I have also survived. Changes shall manifest.


I am much stronger than people realize.


Epiphany #1: One particular organized religion has been the main cause of my life's tragedies.
Epiphany#2: Religion was a good idea, but just one of many concepts that has been warped and abused by humans.
Epiphany #3: Mormonism is a vicious pattern that has created misery and toxic relationships in my life, as well as others.
Epiphany #4: My mother loves me despite perpetual patterns of abuse. It's all she knows.


At the core, we are all lightworkers of goodness and love.
I am continually developing and healing, just as every soul is designed to do.
Although I am spiritually depressed and homesick much of the time, I also know I am not alone in this world.
It is time for human beings to evolve, and to move into a new age of peace, healing and love.

And it is also time for me to openly express myself!
My thoughts and emotions should be shared, not oppressed, and not repressed.
I do not intend to oppress nor offend anyone.
After all, diversity is a blessing, and needs to be accepted.
Diversity allows us to learn, and see things from many different angles and perspectives.
And the ability to truly listen, is far more important than the ability to agree.


Religion, spirituality, and morals, are all very separate things.
My intentions are solely in favor of open-mindedness, knowledge, spiritual growth and love.
And refusal to think freely and independently is disrespectful to yourself.
One should wield intellectual and free thought as a natural characteristic. Because it is.
What organized religion has taught me,
is that it religion is against real wisdom and freedom,
since its purpose is to control and abuse others.
To obey authority without question has too much room for oppression and abuse.
Without questioning, there is no learning. And without learning, there is no growth.
And where is the reflection of love; the core energy of which we are made?


I pray for the badly needed reform of this violent world.
I must express that there are loving alternatives to authoritarian organizations and religions,
and these alternatives can be more spiritually fulfilling and enjoyable than they may ever know.


We, as human beings, are not in the dark ages anymore.
So let us evolve and reflect that fact.


In Love and Peace,
~Mistress Taelle~






Welcome to Spiritual Freedom



Hi.

I am known as Taelle, or Mistress.

         If you don't already know me, then this site probably isn't for you. This is one of my journals, also known as a blog. I initially created this site because I want to be totally honest with myself and revive the good habit of keeping a journal. I want to be free to express myself, spiritually and otherwise.
         So here I am, and here it is:  My blog of Spiritual Freedom.




Things About Me

Evidently I am indigo and crystal soul. I am a very evolved and seasoned soul who often feels homesick, since Earth is not my true home. In relation to the earth angel realms I am many things. I consider myself a wolf, sorceress, elemental, angel, mermaid and starsoul. I am romantic and sensual. I am secretive, mysterious, more than shy of socializing but playful and creative. I am extremely sensitive... I have a residual anger towards humans but I will show them understanding and compassion anyway... even when they don't return it.

I have found my twin flame and I will always love him and be with him.

I love animals. I love wolves, kitties, dragons, dragonflies, unicorns, butterflies, and many other creatures. I love art, creativity, affection, fun and laughter. I love nature, rain and thunderstorms. I love water, and swimming. I am interested in astrology, astronomy, spirituality, oracle cards and various methods of divination. I love technology and magic. I love music. I also enjoy movies and games, especially computers and videogames. I love books and stories, and hope to finish writing my own. I love dreams and am largely fascinated by them... I love daydreams, fantasy, science fiction, and satire. I love learning.

I love kirbies!



I don't endorse religion.
But I don't condemn those who do.
I simply believe in Spirituality,
Open-mindedness and Integrity,
Freedom of Expression,
Understanding and Acceptance,
And most of all, LOVE.

Love is of the greatest importance,
In the entire universe.
And I would unravel and die
Before my soul ever believes otherwise.




I love my family.
I love my twin flame.
I love my best friend,
who is also my family.
I always strive to love others,
Whether I know them or not.
And even those who hate me,
I cannot hate them back,
Because hate constricts growth.
And love can heal anything.

This love is unconditional.
Despite confusion and conflicts.
And so, I must also accept myself,
And try to love myself,
No matter what.
Love is all that truly matters.

And our world is immensely suffering from such lack of its use.
Ego is NOT an appropriate
substitute for Love.
Ego keeps us from being able to truly love ourselves and others.
Ego creates un-love, which will only create more aspects of un-love.
Ego keeps change from happening.
Ego endorses fear, ignorance, hate and greed.
The policy of "every man for himself" does not work.
People are still hurting each other.
Stop listening to the Ego!

So let's stop waiting.
Everyone needs and deserves Love.
Let's create Love!

The new age is now.






~ I Love You! ~



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You can also send email to
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If you are nice, or neutral,
then I won't bite.
However, please do not contact me if you intend to utilize insults, or otherwise have low opinion of me.

Due to note:

I am not a spawn of Satan
I am not misguided
I am wrong or going to hell
I am not stupid
I am not naive
And I am not inferior,
nor superior,
to anyone else.

I am simply on my own path.
This is the way things are.

So please don't be ignorant.
I respect others as individuals.
And I would appreciate the same.
Please be conscientious,
as I too am a soul in need of love.

Otherwise...
Stop wasting your time with my blog.

Thank you.




~ Let's Be Free ~




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The section below, is at least somewhat an expression of who I am.
These are my thoughts on some of the things I believe and don't believe.
I am not preaching "right or wrongs" to anyone.
These are my personal opinions
as everyone is entitled to their own.
So please don't get defensive,
though I can't help it if you read it and are offended.


I Believe -

-  In an obligation to Relax and have Fun.
-  That laughter is a lighthearted necessity.
-  That an uninhibited sense of humor is a refreshing form of enjoyment.
-  That spontaneity is also very refreshing and enjoyable.
-  That refusing to question authority is being disrespectful to yourself and your integrity.
-  That love is real and beautiful.
-  That human beings should love others as well as themselves.
-  That everyone is worthy of love.
-  That, with love, all things can grow.
-  That love knows no bounds.
-  That to view all things and situations with love, is a healing and peaceful way of life.
-  That there is nothing wrong with making mistakes, as long as you are learning from them.
-  That learning, in its various forms, is important, just as knowledge is power.
-  That the "sub-conscious" is just another word for our soul.
-  That, through this "sub-conscious", we can have access to endless knowledge, forgotten memories and other hidden power.
-  That all living beings have souls... With the exception of the little earthly automatons, cells, bacteria, and etc.
-  That earthly (or non-earthly) automatons, including insects, are living things of the earth that deserve respect, although they are not individual spirits.
-  That when we refuse to acknowledge our feelings, use our minds and utilize intellect, we "humans" aren't acting any better than mindless drones. I'm sorry but it just reflects the behavior of a termite colony... Or a Zerg colony. ("LIVE FOR THE SWARM!")
-  That humans are animals too. We are equal to other forms of life, not superior.
-  That reincarnation exists, and that "past lives", "next lives" and "pre existences" have the same meaning.
-  That reincarnation is about choice, and NEVER about punishment.
-  That reincarnation has various purposes, including, but not limited to, spiritual growth, enjoyment and learning.
-  We signed up for what we got... Every single time.
-  That reincarnation is not limited to the human existence, as there are other forms of "intelligent life", and they are just as significant as we are.
-  That Soul Mates exist; in that the actual definition of Soul Mates is, "Living Souls with whom we may have shared various pre-mortal and/or past-life experiences, and have previously agreed to meet once again."
-  That there are many types of Soul Mates.
-  That anyone, even relatives, or seeming "enemies", can be a type of Soul Mate to you.
-  That Soul Mates are here to assist us in our own personal life's journey, and to help heal situations (both past and present), whether we consciously realize it or not.
-  That man created "god" in the image of himself, and not the other way around.
-  That angels exist, as they are simply spirits, but those which resonate of pure love, because that is the energy of what god is.
-  That every living person has at least two guardian angels (or other spirit guides), who are always available to call upon for support.
-  That many guides and angels have been with me throughout my entire life, and that I am never alone.
-  That, because of the divine laws of Free Will, we are in control of our own destiny, and that is also why it is important to pray, and to give "permission" for our guides to "interfere" with our lives and give us assistance.
-  That magic exists, because it is of the same definition as prayer, and any other higher powers that can create miracles through manifestation.
-  That we can pray to call upon blessings, for our needs and desires to manifest.
-  That, for blessings and manifestations to work properly, at least some small degree of belief is required. As long as there is belief and good intent, prayer can work for anyone.
-  That, in order to receive those blessings, we must allow them to happen, and to accept them graciously, without endorsing feelings of guilt or unworthiness.
-  That anyone and anything we encounter is giving us a chance learn something.
-  That everyone has the hidden potential to unlock the secrets of claivoyance and to utilize psychic abilities.
-  That, although there have been many fraudulent practices, lies, and abuse in the subject of psychic power, there are also valid Clairvoyants and Psychic people, throughout history.
-  That true Psychics, far more often than not, are truly very warm and loving people who desire to help others. They just have to make a living for themselves, too.
-  That divination and psychic abilities exist, and are not limited to predicting the future, but can give profound insight to any situation, as well as revealing hidden knowledge about the past, present, and oneself.
-  That the world is entering a new phase right now, not necessarily ending. We are beginning a new age, vibrations are changing, and change is necessary and even inevitable. Besides, there is truly no such thing as an ending without a new beginning.
-  That our subconscious self (our souls) are ALREADY develloped, and all-knowing. We, as physical-based beings, simply struggle to tap into different levels consciousness.
-  That we, our true soul forms, were made as a part of, and are one with, the ultimate divine source (God, Spirit, or whatever you want to call it). We are not separate, and we are not inferior, nor superior.



I Don't Believe -

-  In the Bible, or any other "scriptures" or "gospels" of this world. They are written and changed by men. I cannot appreciate it when anyone takes the Bible seriously or literally. It is an untruthful, oppressive book of man, and it is not of God. However, that doesn't mean that we can't learn from it.
-  In authoritarian Religion. Some people tend to find comfort in it, but I have also seen how much pain and problems it can cause. It's mainly just there to control and manipulate.
-  In the practice of blind obedience.
-  That Satan exists. (Unless he is a crazy mushroom! Lol, not really.)
-  That killing, infliction of pain, or any acts of hate or violence, have EVER been endorsed by GOD. (Don't you remember the commandment, "Thou shalt not kill"?)
-  That God could ever represent or personify anything that is contradictory of pure Love and Acceptance.
-  That God would ever give us orders, especially through the word of man and his writing, and expect us to obey without question.
-  That God could practice or endorse punishment, or ANY form of force at all.
-  That discrimination against a person or living being is EVER justified. Differences should be embraced, not attacked!
-  That there is any such thing as a "superior" gender, race, religion, or otherwise.
-  That the traditional view of "Hell" could EVER exist. But I do believe, that sometimes there is hell in mortality, particularly when humans attempt to judge and punish each other. Yet in the afterlife, there is only "Hell" if we feel that we deserve to be judged and punished as well, and therefore we "condemn" ourselves by inflicting self-torture. But this ends when we realize that everyone deserves love and happiness... Including ourselves!





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Sunday, May 31, 2009
One time I was drunk and... nevermind.

I want to change and fix up my blog some more, but I still don't have the patience yet. I'm tired today, and yes I basically just woke up, since, usually, "days" start for me in the evenings and I go to bed in the mornings. So I guess I missed a day of blogging, but that's okay. And nothing extremely interesting was going on anyhow.

I do want to be able to write everything here, anything that I feel or that just pops into my head, without feeling afraid to do so. To be honest and not care what anyone thinks. Because I deserve that much. I deserve to be free.

Besides I don't think anyone is going to be looking at this site other than the two people that I know. So I just want this to be for me. And to share with my twin flame. Like it was supposed to be.

So I had messed up dreams, though that's not unusual. What's slightly unusual is that my body being in heat made it seem exceptionally nonsensical like some kind of porno where everyone starts having sex for no reason... Especially weird when the same gender is trying to make out with me. But okay.

These are the kind of hormones I deal with all the time, but by all means, I'd much rather be horny all the time, than be miserable all the time. Certain people would disagree on that, but they aren't me, so that doesn't really matter, does it.

I don't want anything to kill my natural emotional processes, to prevent me from ever feeling any sensual pleasures, and simply making me miserable all the time... and that's why I am never going to be taking birth control pills again.

On the other hand, no longer taking birth control pills hasn't made everything perfect for me, either, since I still need more time to recover, and my body still has tons of health problems... plenty of which remain a mystery. I constantly have pains, which I obviously need to get checked for, among other things, but have no way to do so yet. I have had highly irregular, extremely painful and prolonged menstrual cycles too, ever since my first one. Unfortunately, where I live, everyone constantly treats a menstrual cycle like habit or something that is the woman's fault, and makes her no longer qualify as a person.... not that the majority here ever qualified women as people to begin with, but still. A slight cold, or an obstinate drug addict, or... well, anything at all, would get more positive attention than what I go through, for more than a third of my life. In fact I have menstrual-like pains whenever I'm not on my menstrual cycle as well, so, yes I do indeed believe that it qualifies as a 'major health problem' which has been ruining my life.

My rants about this subject are highly overdue. And I'm sure there will be a time to continue venting about it someday soon, but I guess I'll switch topics now.

I just had dinner/breakfast... and it's storming outside. I love thunderstorms, though I don't quite I love them as much as I used to... but that's only due to the fact that I started having horrible nightmares about lightning about two years ago. Luckily I don't have dreams like that anymore, but I had still been petrified enough to become wary of thunderstorms. This should be understandable since the recurring dreams almost always included me getting killed, and during one particularly bad dream I awoke to a real storm outside.

I still have some annoying thunder in my dreams every once in a while though, since I live close to an air force base, and the very loud sounds of the jets will translate into my dreams that way.

..I just want to get over this issue now and go back to the way I was. I had always loved thunderstorms. And I mean always. Even as a small child, if there was an apocolyptic thunderstorm going on, I would just be having great fun... even while my mom was scared to death. Naturally I'd take that enjoyment over being scared by thunder just because of some nightmares I'd had. And besides... I'm not careless... I get the feeling that all those dreams represented something metaphorical or emotional rather than a literal premonition. What exactly the message is, though, I'm not so sure.

Dreams have always fascinated me as well.

Anyways... yeah... so what did I do yesterday... It wasn't particularly exciting or amazing or anything, but neither is much of my life..... but at least yesterday was pretty fun. Got to spend time with my lover, which is great of course..... Talking about elements, shadow magic, the shadow realms, and silly things.... and according to Dethy the element of Majii is apparently "the power of living life stuff".....Lol... um... Watched a couple movies.... and for some strange reason felt drunken afterward. I mean I don't suppose I would start thinking aloud in a normal state of mind, my brain doesn't make enough sense to just blurb anything, lol. I even startled and confused myself, but at least it was pretty damn funny.

Dethy, I love you.

I just want to cuddle and feel you more, to just be romantic, to show you how much I love and appreciate you... and to be able to feel how much you love me too... but the time I spend with you is always special. You're the main reason I've been able to grow into such a loving person, to see the good in myself, and everyone. You motivate and inspire me to be the best I can be, and to find my happiness. You bring out the best in me... I wouldn't want to be alive without you because you're everything to me.

That's why I don't even want to conclude a blog entry with anything else.

I just want to be able to share even more with you... to have our lives... to be honest... and be happy... with love... the way we deserve... and that everyone deserves.

Thank you for everything you give me.


Signed, Taelle Oreseth
Posted in freedom and honesty. Sunday, May 31, 2009 at 08:05 pm.

Please comment.

Dethy
May 31, 2009   10:31 PM PDT
 
I want to be able to show you I love you always and in everything I do, because that's what you do for me. I love you more than anything.

Yeah, I want to be able to slow things down and to just be able to lay and sit with you, and enjoy where we're at....I love the feel of you and always want to be close to you. To just be with you and nothing else, because nothing else is necessary....We'll do that more.

I've had great fun just being with you. I love all the movies and watching you do things and just everything. And I love when you share anything with me, it was a lot of fun talking about magic and things.

I want to take good care of you, and just help and share everything with you....


Anyways I just want to be more romantic with you. And take good care of you and show you that you really do mean everything to me, and everything we share is precious and special to me. It warms my heart to see you write things so loving.

I have much more to give, and thank you for everything you give me. I'm sure we have a great future and forever to share. I love you more than anything and look forward to your writings and sharing my writings with you.
   

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